Give me a moment to think this over.

Friday, August 21, 2009

I'm in a real thoughtful mood.

This past week has gone by quickly. I've been reunited with people I haven't seen all summer. I've jumped headfirst into senior year and I'm happy with how it's going.

I've also noticed something about myself today.
I'm not worrying about insignificant stuff that I used to spend hours thinking about.

Literally, I used to spend so much time thinking about stuff that doesn't even matter. Stuff that isn't going to count 10 years down the road. I spent hours debating, dreaming, wishing and wanting, and I've finally realized, I don't need it.

It's going to happen when it happens, and if that's not for a while, I'm perfectly alright with that. It doesn't upset me at all, in fact it sits very well in my stomach. Life is taking off and I have bigger things to worry about than insignificant things like that.

That doesn't mean I make sure I never dream about it, or spend a couple minutes imagining how it will happen, we are all dreamers after all. It's simply our nature. It's normal. And I understand that, but I feel a little better about myself when I know it's not the capturing my entire attention and drawing my gaze away from the One who loves me.

It's up to me to help my friends realize that too. Sometimes I realize how a little event, person, conversation simply takes control of someone. They bring it up constantly in conversation, hint at it and when we avoid the giant elephant in the room, it just makes things awkward. But then again, when am I not awkward.

in other news...

Life is going to fly by so quickly, I'm secretly promising myself to stop and breathe every now and then. Be appreciate of the moment I have, love those around me and enjoy every second I have left. I really need a moment to debrief, and prepare myself for the adventure ahead.

Time to pick up the guitar, and write something meaningful.

"And I don't know why, but with you I'd dance, in a storm, in my best dress - FEARLESS."

Respectfully submitted,