Sunday, December 12, 2010

It's here. Cue the cramming of last minute lectures, re-reading of chapters upon chapters and all that glorious stress. Surprisingly, it hasn't hit me yet. Maybe it's the non-procrastination attitude I held during high school coming back to visit me again, but I'm feeling ready for these last 3 exams.

This weekend has been a whirlwind. It's also been a really emotional week, not just for myself, but for a lot of the girls I live with and other close friends. Between the ups and downs, somewhere between the tears and the laughter, I've learned a lot in the past couple days. I learned you don't always get what you want, and sometimes you just have to go with the swing of things. They usually work themselves out in the end.

I learned making a big deal out of something that really isn't, never helps. Actually, I should have learned that a long time ago, but it usually always comes back to remind me. Sometimes I really need that reminder too.

But I think most importantly this weekend, I learned something new about decisions. I'm not a big fan of them (I didn't learn that, I already know that for sure.) and I don't always like making them. The past couple days I learned some of them you have to make, whether you like it or not, and some of them you don't. Some you can just let unfold themselves in front of you, let them grow as they may, and let their roots spread where they are planted. As much as I wish I could use that for all of them, I know I can't.

So, I wil let those that I can grow in my life. I can't check a "Yes" or "No" at this moment, because frankly, I have no clue which one to check. Maybe within time, as the plant blossoms, the roots spread and the flower grows, I'll be able to see a little bit clearer which one really rings true for me. It's going to take a while, but patience will come in handy now more than ever.

Regardless of all this dangerous thinking I've been doing lately, I've been keeping busy getting things ready for the wonderful 3 weeks of relaxation I will have after finals are finished. The fact that the semester will be OVER, means I will have absolutely no homework to do. No schoolwork whatsoever. This, then means, I'll have my new mic ready to go, and 12 tracks to record in preparation for the spring EP that is being released! So exciting :)

So for now, I finish prep for finals, and watch my little flower take root and grow.

"I found myself today, standing in a spot I thought I'd never be."

Respectfully submitted,