Sunday, April 24, 2011

There is no better feeling than kicking back on a comfy bed, in my favorite pair of jeans, t-shirt and hair up, no worries, sunday night sort of feeling.

Easter has been marvelous.
Church this morning, NCIS all afternoon, plenty of naps and a fantastic dinner to match.
Lots of laughter and memories shared.

This month has been so important for me. I've come to terms with a lot of things, and have been preparing myself mentality for the coming months ahead. Regardless, the nights have been short, both in response to late nights with friends and a sudden inability to fall asleep when I want to. My mind has been plagued with a lot of...thoughts.

I don't like to want things.
I don't like having that feeling that what I have now, isn't good enough.
It is, right?
I mean...I'm perfectly fine without a lot of things, so why need more?

Struggling with that is hard. Discernment is what I need now more than ever. Praying without ceasing in order to know whether this is the path that God is leading me down. I fall upon Him for so much, but I know taking the first step sometimes falls into my own hands. But taking that step is so hard to do. I worry far, far too much.

Life goes on, and so do I.
This will all be figured out in the end.

"One minute, I held the key. Next the walls were closed on me."

Respectfully submitted,